Cold.. hot.. fire.. and ice..

It’s been nut’s here in California lately.. fires everywhere.. it’s only today that they seem to have control over all the fires and I think by now they are all gone..

Sadly.. there are many people that are left homeless due to all the fires.. many homes have been burned to the ground.. many homes damaged.. many people left without a home during the upcoming holiday season.

This year is definitely going to be a season of giving.. there are so many people that are left with nothing now.. and those people need the gifts of necessity from the people that were fortunate to be far enough from the fires and their damage..

What can I do for them.. the wheels in my head are starting to turn..

Does anyone read this?

Hey.. look at that.. they updated this bloggy-blog thing.. hahaha.. it’s about time Friendster!

Not that I use this site much for the blogs and what not.. I just.. well.. neglect it.

This year’s birthday came and went.. lotsa fun.. lotsa laughter.. lotsa memories.. lotsa.. margaritas.. hahah!

Well.. what can I say about it other than.. good times..

I believe…

Gosh.. I find myself in this place again. It’s like the start of something new. A new chapter, rather, a whole new book.

I don’t want to mess this up and have things fall apart like they always do. I don’t want to find myself closing this book again, or ending this chapter anymore. I want this to be open ended. I want us to continue writing this story out, never ending.. always writing.. always something new.

I don’t want to lose him like I’ve lost everyone else.

Granted, to lose everyone else meant finding him. And for that, I am ever so grateful.

But with a gain, there is always a loss. With an up.. there is always a down. With an open, there is always a close.

And it scares me to think that he just may be another one to add to the list.

But I’ll take this one as a day at a time, grateful he is here today, and prayerful that he’ll be here tomorrow.. and thankful he was here yesterday..

And maybe.. the story will never find it’s ending.. and will continue on.. together.. who knows…

Taylor.. the latte boy..

It’s just too much isn’t it..

Life..

Not that I’m hating.. I’m not..

I’m just feeling overwhelmed.. it’s this class I’m taking..

These classes are six weeks.. and you would think that only two questions a week wouldn’t be so bad.. but this professor doesn’t count answers to the discussion quesitons as participation..

You have to answer the question.. AND THEN.. add feedback to others to make it count..

This chick is killer..

And it really doesn’t help that I’m suffereing through some hives at the moment.. with drugs.. ugh.. steriods..

Not fun..

All that I keep thinking about is.. ‘ROID RAGE…

And it makes me laugh…

At least it’s the first day of the rest of my life…

I’m not bitter.. I never really was.. it’s just that there are certain things in life that irk me.. and for some reason.. “this” does..

I don’t know why I just feel so “shot in the gut” when I come across things like that.. you know..

I know it’s a part of my past.. it will always be part of my past.. but if he was trying to get to me.. then.. it’s not working in the sense that he thinks it is..

I know what I have now.. and I really enjoy what I have now.. it’s completely different that was he could have ever given me.. and I thank God everyday that I have what I have now and that God showed me how things could really be with someone else.. someone better..

It bothers me because it just seems so fake.. like he’s trying to hard to show me up..

It angers me cuz he is flaunting something to prove a point.. and I know that he may never admit to that.. but I know that’s what he’s doing..

He wants to hurt me.. it doesn’t hurt me..

It irks me.. and “irking” is not necessarily “hurting” me..

You would never see me flaunt what I have now.. I am proud of it.. and I am happy because of it.. but I will never flaunt it..

I don’t have to prove to anyone that I am happy.. I don’t have to prove it to anyone but myself.. and who ever I’m involved with..

And definitely not to him..

Ugh.

Sweeny, fricken, Todd!

Johnny Depp.  Sweeny Tood.  The musical.

Definitely must see.

I mean.. who wouldn’t want to see Johnny Depp all "sweeny-todd’d out" and being all "demon barber of seville"ish..

Oh yes.

Who wouldn’t?

You’d have to be crazy.

Definitely crazy.

It’s Johnny Depp.

Johnny, fricken, Depp!

In a musical.. a fricken musical..

Yes.. my life is complete!

What now, biscuitheads?!

OUT OF CONTROL!!!

Ok.. I just felt the need to yell.. by typing in all capital letters to distinguish between normal vocalization and yelling.

Blah, blah, blah.

Let’s see, what have I been up to since I was last of Friendster..

Nothing much really.

I got promoted to Senior Research Associate I at work.  I am working on another project that is keep me busy and making spin in circles.  No worries.  I love every minute of it.

I am still obsessed with Catholic Podcasts.  I have learned so much about my faith and it has strengthened it like nothing else really has.  I am always finding inspiration in their stories and peace knowing a lot of people go through the same things i do in regards to faith. 

Still singing.

Still in the choir.

Still active in theater.

Still a geek.

That’s pretty much the update on my life.  I know it’s not much and I know I always promise to come back and add entries more regularly, but this time I will not promise such things.

If I write.. the so be it.  If not, then you weren’t expecting anything anyway.

So there.

Who’s the big geek now?

I have just discovered the beauty and the necessity of the podcast… yes.. I said it.. podcast..

Ok.. in defense of me.. I just recently started actively using my iPod.. an iPod I have had since my.. 25th.. birthday.. and I just started using it steadily since last week or so.. I love it.. now that I’m all into that stuff.. it comes in handy..

I use it all the time.. to learn about things.. right now.. my addiction is Catholic Podcasts.. I have subscribed to about four or five podcasts.. and i have started from the beginning with a lot of them.. so I’m playing a lot of catch up when it comes to the postings..

I shoudl be listening to some right now.. but i kinda don’t want to run out because then.. i’ll be listening to one or two podcasts per subscription instead of a lot at a time once I catch up.. then.. there is a possiblitity that i could get bored because of that..

Yes.. I am a geek.. soon.. I want to get into some political.. and social type of podcasting.. so that justyn and i can have some intelligent debates about our opinions of what’s going on in the news and in the government..

See.. I can be a grown up!

Hardened

Heart beats real strong.. but not for long..
I don’ tknow how long.. I don’ tknow

Frustrated.. lonely..
Alone in this battle
Waiting to be rescued
But no one hears my screams

Don’t know how I can take this
Dont know who can survive
I am never strong enough
My will easily breaks

Movies!

Watching the oscars is making me aware of the many movies I haven’t been watching..

I need to start watching more movies.. especially these nice short films and independent stuff.. all these Oscar nominated movies.. I need to start watching more of them..